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26:35 S1E29

What’s Left of Me?

The Felonist has reached the point where the noise, chaos, and emotional exhaustion of Rikers force her into a brutal kind of self‑inventory—one she can no longer outrun. This episode …

37:18 S1E28

Darkness Takes Over

In Darkness Takes Over, the Felonist descends into the deepest psychological and spiritual collapse of her Rikers journey, a place where isolation, abandonment, and fear converge into a darkness she …

23:43 S1E27

Picking Up the Pieces

In Picking Up the Pieces, the Felonist emerges from the emotional wreckage of the previous weeks and enters the quiet, uncertain aftermath—the moment where the unraveling has already happened, and …

23:04 S1E26

Broken, Unraveling, Falling Apart

After more than two months without a visit, the Felonist reaches the point where the emotional, psychological, and spiritual strain of Rikers becomes unbearable, and the unraveling she has been …

22:39 S1E25

Finally Owning What’s Mine

In Finally Owning What’s Mine, the Felonist steps into the hardest and most necessary reckoning of her Rikers journey: the moment she stops running from her choices, her patterns, her …

29:43 S1E24

Accountability Sucks

The Felonist hits the emotional wall she has been circling for months, forced to confront the brutal truth of her relationships, her fear, and the weight of her own choices. …

28:42 S1E23

Reality Bites

In Reality Bites, the Felonist reaches the moment where denial finally cracks and the truth of her situation lands with a sting she can no longer outrun. This episode captures …

24:18 S1E22

Fear Is Winning

In Fear Is Winning, the Felonist reaches the point where faith, strength, and routine can no longer hold back the rising tide of panic, and she is forced to confront …

33:06 S1E21

Aching and Awakening

In Aching and Awakening, the Felonist reaches the point where isolation stops being a circumstance and becomes a state of mind, forcing her to confront the loneliness, fear, and emotional …

30:27 S1E20

Anywhere But Right Here, Right Now

In this episode of the Rikers Diaries, the Felonist reaches the point where longing becomes its own kind of torment—caught between the noise of Rikers, the silence from home, and …

23:47 S1E19

Train Wreck in Slow Motion

In Train Wreck in Slow Motion, the Felonist is dragged through the brutal machinery of the court system—shuttled, cuffed, ignored, injured, and left to navigate the emotional and psychological violence …

27:27 S1E18

Lost in the Void

In Lost in the Void, the Felonist confronts the psychological freefall of incarceration: the loneliness, the overmedication haze, the crushing anxiety, and the desperate search for meaning when the legal …