All Episodes

33:06 S1E21

Aching and Awakening

In Aching and Awakening, the Felonist reaches the point where isolation stops being a circumstance and becomes a state of mind, forcing her to confront the loneliness, fear, and emotional …

30:27 S1E20

Anywhere But Right Here, Right Now

In this episode of the Rikers Diaries, the Felonist reaches the point where longing becomes its own kind of torment—caught between the noise of Rikers, the silence from home, and …

23:47 S1E19

Train Wreck in Slow Motion

In Train Wreck in Slow Motion, the Felonist is dragged through the brutal machinery of the court system—shuttled, cuffed, ignored, injured, and left to navigate the emotional and psychological violence …

27:27 S1E18

Lost in the Void

In Lost in the Void, the Felonist confronts the psychological freefall of incarceration: the loneliness, the overmedication haze, the crushing anxiety, and the desperate search for meaning when the legal …

19:47 S1E17

Forsaken

In Forsaken, the Felonist enters the darkest stretch of her incarceration, confronting the emotional collapse that comes with prolonged isolation, family separation, and the mental health toll of life inside …

34:11 S1E16

Teetering on the Edge of Myself

This episode captures the exact moment when the Felonist feels herself slipping between who she was and who she is becoming, suspended in the uneasy space where hope, fear, and …

26:16 S1E15

Okay, So Now What?

In Okay, So Now What?, the Felonist stops circling the wreckage and finally stands in the center of it—not triumphant, not healed, not redeemed, just awake. After months of fear, …

24:14 S1E14

Mirror Mirror — I’m Not Good at All

Finally, the Felonist stops running from herself—not the polished self, not the competent self, not the charming self, but the real one underneath the drinking, the denial, the self‑punishment, the …

27:11 S1E13

Finding Meaning in the Madness

After being in jail for a while, the mind starts stitching meaning into the chaos—dreams, signs, conspiracies, memories, pennies on the floor, anything that might prove the universe is still …

28:49 S1E12

Losing the Thread

There is a moment in every unraveling when the floor finally drops—when the rituals that kept you upright, the faith that steadied your breath, and the discipline that held your …

29:18 S1E11

Pennies on the Floor

In this episode, The Felonist rides the emotional whiplash of legal updates, sleepless nights, and the countdown to freedom. Valentine’s Day hits different on the inside, stirring memories of real …

20:55 S1E10

Bless Me Indeed

In Bless Me Indeed, The Felonist doesn’t sugarcoat a thing -- this is the moment she finally stops seeing herself as broken and begins to believe she might actually deserve …